Most days I am too distracted or too tired or just too uninterested in soul searching.\u00c2\u00a0 I know that if I sit and reflect upon my life, I will be discontented (or worse) with myself.\u00c2\u00a0 Oh, not in my life — most days I float along, content.\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0But when I take a look at myself, I know that I am not living my life, giving to my life, creating the home, the parent, the wife, the cook, the gardener, the friend that I want to be.\u00c2\u00a0 I buy hordes of books on various topics.\u00c2\u00a0I formulate grand plans.\u00c2\u00a0 I make lists, which I somehow expect to resolve full bloom into results.\u00c2\u00a0<\/p>\n
This year for New years I consolidated piles of my lists into my Grand Plan (It’s the mother of all lists –\u00c2\u00a0a five page list of lists).\u00c2\u00a0 And my resolution focused more on spending some time every day working on something on the list.\u00c2\u00a0 And in truth, I’ve done a better job at that than I might have expected.\u00c2\u00a0 I comb through it every week or so and cross off the items that I’ve manged to conquer.\u00c2\u00a0 But its a slow process, and it’s difficult to be patient with myself.\u00c2\u00a0<\/p>\n